Jesus, Lover of My Soul

Jesus, lover of my soul, let me to Thy bosom fly,
While the nearer waters roll, while the tempest still is high.
Hide me, O my Savior, hide, till the storm of life is past;
Safe into the haven guide; O receive my soul at last.
Other refuge have I none, hangs my helpless soul on Thee;
Leave, ah! leave me not alone, still support and comfort me.
All my trust on Thee is stayed, all my help from Thee I bring;
Cover my defenseless head with the shadow of Thy wing.
Wilt Thou not regard my call? Wilt Thou not accept my prayer?
Lo! I sink, I faint, I fall - Lo! on Thee I cast my care;
Reach me out Thy gracious hand! While I of Thy strength receive,
Hoping against hope I stand, dying, and behold, I live.
Thou, O Christ, art all I want, more than all in Thee I find;
Raise the fallen, cheer the faint, heal the sick, and lead the blind.
Just and holy is Thy Name, I am all unrighteousness;
False and full of sin I am; Thou art full of truth and grace.
Plenteous grace with Thee is found, grace to cover all my sin;
Let the healing streams abound; make and keep me pure within.
Thou of life the fountain art, freely let me take of Thee;
Spring Thou up within my heart; rise to all eternity.

For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So death is at work in us, but life in you.
2 Corinthians 4:11

Paul's body was marred so many times from the whips, beatings, and other physical inflictions. This did not stop him from being alive spiritually. Though my daily battles do not come by the way of physical beatings-they are anguishing just the same. A friend of mine was sharing with me about how Satan tries to use these weaknesses to get to us. We agreed that seeking God and clinging to Him allows God to use these trials to strengthen us. On the mission field, you fight loneliness, culture shock, misunderstanding of customs, and so many other things. You can cry out to God or allow these hard things to bring you down. It is only because of Christ that we have life.

God uses Paul to show me that a selfless life serving Him is really what I want. Serving others at any capacity is what He shows us. In James 1:27, James shares that, "Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this; to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world."
In 2 Corinthians, he also shows us that He, "through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere. For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing..." everywhere echoes in my mind as I continue to wait patiently for the remainder of my Visa documents to come.

I became a bit frustrated during my prayers yesterday as I explained to God that I didn't know what was happening or if I had everything right on my documentation. I hadn't heard anything for about three weeks and it can become a bit hard to not hear anything. People say, "When do you leave?" and it's SO hard to just say, "I do not know." or "December something." It is difficult for people to realize that something is really happening if there is no date. But, I will not have a for sure date until two weeks before I leave. The Brazilian Consolate will make sure of this :)

In my thanksgivings-

• God provided some support this week to help my airfare and travel Visa costs!!!
• I received two very important pieces that will help complete my Visa packet!
• I also received my health insurance cards! Yay! I will soon be able to get my allergy medication!!
• Some of my teammates received their phone calls from the Brazilian Consolate and now have to send their passports to be stamped!!! They are really close!!!!

In my prayer requests-

• continued prayers for patience, trust, and faith during the whole process.
• teammates, faculty, and students of Brasilia International School.
• current and future financial supporters!!
• my mother to find another job and for her previous co-workers that are not saved.
• other financial matters-selling my car, student loans